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And the world — poison and teeth
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Page 440. Continuation of Abelard to Heloise: world with 'gift un tsayn' (poison and teeth) has 'faryagt mayn gebay' (pursued my building — castration reference). Body 'farkriplt' (crippled), calling 'farshemt' (shamed), cry 'farblutikt' (bloodied). Books 'farbrent' (burned), songs 'farlent' (slandered — Abelard's works condemned), 'farmoyert in vent' (walled in walls — monastery). Far from world, heart cries 'Heloiz'. Wonders if 'vunder' will come — to see her 'farn toyt' (before death). Around him 'shlos un vakh' (lock and guard), 'monastirisher dakh' (monastery roof), 'vayser monakh' (white monk). Part II 'Aza glik' (Such Happiness): happiness to want her though absent; step over 'shvel' (threshold) — she's there anyway. Tears out 'tsamen fun tsitn' (bridles of times), plays 'vi a harf' (like a harp) on 'fliglen fun vaytn' (wings of distance). Transcending separation through desire.
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און די וועלט --- גיפט און ציין
פון פּאַרפאַלענעם נוץל --
האָט פּאַריגט. מיין געבייה
העלואיז.
און פּאַרקריפלט מיין גוף,
און פּאַרשעמט מיין באַרוף:
און פאַרבלוטיקט מיין רוף+
העלואיז,
מיינע ביכער -- פּאַרברענט,
מיינע לידער -- פּאַרלענדט,
מיך פּאַרמויערט אין ווענטי --
העלואיז.
איך בין ווייש, איך בין ווייט,
פון דער וועלט אָן אַ זייט,
נאֶר דאָס האָרץ אַלץ נא שרייט :
העלואיז,
טוט אין מודז אַ ברען:
וועט אַ וואונדער געשען? --
פּאָרן טויט כאָטש דיך זעז --
העלואיז.
אָרום מיר -- שלאָס און וואַךְ
מאָנאַסטירישער דאַך,
בין אַ ווייסער מוּמִנאַך --
העלואיז.
1
אא גליק
אַאַ גליק -- דיך צו וועלןי
כאָטש איך זע: ביסט ניטאָ:
טרעט אַריבער די שוועלה --
ביסט דאַך סיי-ווידסיי דאָ.
אַלע צאַמען פון צישן
רייס איך אויס און פּאַרוואַרף :
אויף די פליגלען פון ווייטן
שפיל איך-אויף ווי א האַרף.
Un di velt — gift un tsayn
fun farfalenem nits —
hot faryagt mayn gebay,
Heloiz.
Un farkriplt mayn guf,
un farshemt mayn baruf,
un farblutikt mayn ruf,
Heloiz.
Mayne bikher — farbrent,
mayne lider — farlent,
mikh farmoyert in vent, —
Heloiz.
Ikh bin vayst, ikh bin vayt,
fun der velt on a zayt,
nor dos harts alts nokh shrayt:
Heloiz.
Tut in mud a bren:
vet a vunder geshen? —
farn toyt khotsh dikh zen —
Heloiz.
Arum mir — shlos un vakh,
monastirisher dakh,
bin a vayser monakh —
Heloiz.
II
Aza glik
Aza glik — dikh tsu veln,
khotsh ikh ze: bist nito;
tret ariber di shvel —
bist dokh say-vi-say do.
Ale tsamen fun tsitn
rays ikh oys un farvarf;
oyf di fliglen fun vaytn
shpil ikh-oyf vi a harf.
And the world — poison and teeth
from fallen benefit —
has pursued my building,
Heloise.
And crippled my body,
and shamed my calling,
and bloodied my cry,
Heloise.
My books — burned,
my songs — slandered,
me walled up in walls, —
Heloise.
I am wise, I am far,
from the world without side,
but the heart still cries:
Heloise.
In my mind burns a glow:
will a wonder occur? —
before death at least see you —
Heloise.
Around me — lock and guard,
monastery roof,
I am a white monk —
Heloise.
II
Such Happiness
Such happiness — to want you,
though I see: you're not here;
step across the threshold —
yet you're here anyway.
All bridles of times
I tear out and throw away;
on the wings of distance
I play like a harp.
Page 440. Continuation of Abelard to Heloise: world with 'gift un tsayn' (poison and teeth) has 'faryagt mayn gebay' (pursued my building — castration reference). Body 'farkriplt' (crippled), calling 'farshemt' (shamed), cry 'farblutikt' (bloodied). Books 'farbrent' (burned), songs 'farlent' (slandered — Abelard's works condemned), 'farmoyert in vent' (walled in walls — monastery). Far from world, heart cries 'Heloiz'. Wonders if 'vunder' will come — to see her 'farn toyt' (before death). Around him 'shlos un vakh' (lock and guard), 'monastirisher dakh' (monastery roof), 'vayser monakh' (white monk). Part II 'Aza glik' (Such Happiness): happiness to want her though absent; step over 'shvel' (threshold) — she's there anyway. Tears out 'tsamen fun tsitn' (bridles of times), plays 'vi a harf' (like a harp) on 'fliglen fun vaytn' (wings of distance). Transcending separation through desire.
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